Giving Tough Love – to Yourself

Happy Sunday!

Normally Sundays are for spending the entire day in your pajamas and watching ridiculous amounts of tv.  Or at least that’s how it goes here.  Things they are a changing though.  Now that I have MBA classes Saturday mornings, I can’t get a long run in.  I have to leave the house by 6:30 am and by the time I get home it is way too hot out to think about long miles.  And Jeff has been working on Saturdays so Sundays for him are homework central.  So I am being flexible as I have learned and moved my long run to Sunday.  Which means I just got in from doing 10 miles in 75 degree sunshine… I know, it’s a tough life I lead.  I will get into that run shortly.

Here’s what this week looked like:

Monday – 4 easy miles @ 9:19/mile avg

Tuesday – upper body strength workout – getting closer to my pull-up goal.  Also learned spiderman push-ups and immediately developed a love hate relationship with them.  They hurt so good.

Wednesday – tough love tempo run – 7 total, 6 tempo miles @ 8:30ish

Thursday – 3 easy miles @9:30 then crazy leg workout.  Don’t want to hear the word squat for at least 2.7 days.

Friday – sleep in

Saturday – mental workout aka MBA Financial Accounting Class

Sunday – 10 tough love miles @ 9:50 pace

Week total – 24

You might notice that I’ve called two of my runs tough love runs.  This is something I have started doing for myself when I just want to quit throughout the run and crawl back into bed to hibernate.  Wednesday’s tempo run was hard and discouraging.  The tempo miles were only about 10 seconds faster than I  hope to run the half marathon at, and it was half the distance.  So throughout the run there was a lot of self talk and conversation going on in my head.  I need to say ‘hey, legs, you are lucky to be able to do this so you better be working’ and ‘hey lungs, let’s do this…  there are no snow or cold air excuses so get moving’ and ‘don’t you even think about quitting brain, we are going to DO this’.  Don’t worry, this self talk doesn’t happen out loud, and it’s usually still dark when I run during the week so if you happen to see a crazy girl talking to herself while running, it’s not me.  At least I think I don’t do this out loud 😉  In my mind I turn into my high school cross country coach that used to ride beside us in his car screaming to go faster while we ran up a mountain of a hill (a NJ hill, not a puny FL one).

I know that some people might say, if you aren’t having the time of your life then why would you continue to run?  But they just wouldn’t understand.  Running is not always fun but that doesn’t make me love it any less.  Those tough runs are what make the good ones feel GREAT.  And I’m learning that when it’s tough and I force myself to keep going, it’s a much bigger accomplishment.  I know that at that point I am getting mentally strong which is just as important as the physical side.  Refuse to let yourself quit.  Unless you’re physically having issues like seeing double which may or may not have happened to me this morning.  The genius in me rolled out of bed and ran out the door for my 2nd 10 miler of the training cycle.  I brought a water bottle but nothing to eat, not thinking that I hadn’t eaten anything in a good 15 hours.  I had to stop after mile 9 and grab some gatorade from the godsend of Walgreen’s that just appeared out of nowhere (not really, they are on every corner here).  But I finished, and I didn’t do half as bad as I felt like I was doing.  Of course my heart rate would beg to differ, I was in the garmin ‘5’ zone of over-reaching again.  But I’m just going to write this run off as an exercise of mental toughness.

So this went on much longer than I planned.  But just don’t let yourself give up on whatever you are reaching for when it gets hard.  For me, it’s running.  And less than 6 months ago, running 1 mile without stopping was tough.  Today, it’s 10 miles.  That’s progress folks, no way around that.  Celebrate the small victories and appreciate the toughness as it reflects directly on you.  You’re the one breaking down obstacles and doing the work.  It’s the tough that makes you strong, not when things are easy.

I’m also still really appreciating the inspiration that I find in all of the running blogs that I read. Three of the absolute most inspiring that I’ve followed religiously are Katie, Janae, and  Dorothy.  Not only are they super speedy, but their messages that they write about and embrace in life every day are so motivating.  So hats off to you ladies, and thank you for keeping me so inspired through all of your hard work.  You make me realize that my goals are possible and that so much more can be if I want it.

I’m still here!

Wow, long time!  I haven’t completely fallen off the face of the planet, I’ve just been busy busy busy.

Instead of trying to recap the last few (2!?!) weeks, I’ll do a photo dump instead.

New Year’s Resolution Success #1!  Egg – Nog mini cupcakes… verdict = LOVE.



This 9 miles felt SO much better than the last one I did. 🙂IMG_0768

New Year’s Resolution #2: Eggs Benedict w/smoked salmon – Poached eggs are my new most favorite thing to make and eat!


7 mile tempo (1 mile warm up, 5 miles tempo @ 8:45ish, 1 mile cool down) – felt great!


10 mile run – my longest of the training cycle and the longest I’ve run in almost 7 years – ROCKED it.  This felt so awesome.  I got out early, weather was perfect, and felt relaxed the whole time.  Was able to sprint out toward the end which is my favorite thing to do.


I survived it 🙂


It’s official!  I’m a student again.  My first class was this morning and I think I’m really going to like it.  I’m doing a part time MBA program that I can balance with work.  It’s a small class that I got to meet on Thursday at an orientation so today wasn’t my first time seeing them.



This is not from the past two weeks.  It is from New Year’s Eve, just because I like it.  And it was a fun night, so you get to see it.






So that really has been my life the past two weeks.  Lots of running, cooking, working, learning.

I’ll be back sooner 🙂  I PROMISE.


Happy New Year! Time for 2013 GOALS

Happy New Year!  Welcome to 2013 folks, I have a feeling it’s going to be quite a ride.

Someone partied a little too hard for New Year’s Eve:


Not really, I think she might just have PTSD from the fireworks that go off in our neighborhood for every holiday.

Time for some GOALS for the year.  I’m doing this mostly so I have something I have to look back on throughout the year.

Sub 2:00 1/2 Marathon – I have one scheduled in February, but plenty more of the year if it doesn’t happen then.

1st Full Marathon – I’m leaning more and more toward the Utah Valley Marathon in June.  If I’m able to do that, there’s also a Rock N Roll race in Miami in November.  That would make 2 if I’m able to resurrect my inner over achiever.  Not going to put a time on this.  But wouldn’t it be so nice to go sub 4 my first time?

Pull-ups – remember when you were in high school and you had to do those President fitness tests where if you were a girl you could get on a pull-up bar and just hang there for a while?  I hated that.  I wanted to do what the boys did and do pull ups.  Well it’s been over 10 years and I’ve lost all of my pull-upping ability and want it back.  By the end of this year, they will happen.  At least 2 in a row.  It sounds puny but so are my arms.  So there.

Cook new recipes – I want to learn to cook new types of foods.  I want to try one new meal and one new dessert every week 🙂

No more soda – I need to rid myself of the chemical water that I have way too much of.  By the end of the year.  I’m learning more and more to like water and need to keep that up.

Read more – This is going to be a hard one once I start school in a few weeks, but I really miss reading.  I got some exciting books for Christmas and started one of them, the 2nd Hunger Games book, on the flight back home last week and love it already.  I’m going to say one book per month and that’s it.  If I’m able to do more then great.  I really would like to find a book club but 1) I don’t know anyone in one and 2) there aren’t enough hours in the week already.  But it would be really fun to have a get together every month or however book clubs work.

Declutter – I am terrible at letting things pile up.  Piles everywhere.  Makes a house cluttered very fast.  I want to minimize the ‘stuff’ and make sure everything I have is meaningful, is used, and has a place to be put away.  Anything that doesn’t fit the bill will be donated or trashed.  I started this over the weekend with a mass shredding session.  Next stop my closet.

Spend smart – This year I want to focus on spending smarter.  I’ve gotten into the habit of spending impulsively, making big purchases (hello garmin 610, new running sneakers, new car) in very quick succession.  I want to be more focused in what I’m spending on and save more.

Ok I think that’s a very long list for someone who doesn’t ordinarily make resolutions or set goals.  But it’s in stone now.  Or on the internet that I can delete or edit at any time.  I won’t do that though I promise.  I swear.

I’m excited for everything that this year has in store for us.  On a larger scale, I know that even if I achieve all of these, I won’t be saving the world but it’s what I want for myself, to make a better ‘me’ this year.  I only hope that this is a year full of hope and happiness for everyone.  No more devastation in the form of natural distasters, misguided human destruction and tragedy, and more awareness of the world beyond ourselves.  There’s a lot going on out there people, educate yourselves and don’t let yourselves become ignorant.  It’ll put into perspective what you think are unsolvable problems or what is truly important.    PSA complete.  Thanks for reading this far if you made it 🙂

Do you set goals for the new year?